Its weird how far behind i am lets see last time i wrote a blog it was week two were no at week 6 session 5. and we just got done with out 2 week session. This session is different because the kids come and stay over the weeked and then part of the next week... 12 days... gotta say this was the week i was looking forawrd to the most... usually its 5 days with the kids then they are gone from 7-9 we spend time hanging out doing what they want... on the 12 day we have them over the weekend... over the weekend the boy scouts really have nothing going on activity wise so its up to us to fill the day with activities. A pause here because i feel like im making it sound like a huge deal like awww man the boys scouts are closed so we HAVE to find something to do to entertain these kids for 2 days, not my point at all just after relying on the boy scouts for 4 weeks getting routines and stuff going this is definitely a curve ball... or is it a slider??? screw ball?? sorry not important... so we had movie night and a gold rush (treasure hunt on sat and sun and that made up some of the time then there was a fishing derby sponsored by the nh fish and game service. they came out with some fishing poles and worms taught the kids to fish and made sure ever one was safe... so much fun the kids really enjoyed the attention and lessons they learned... when it was over there was a nice bbq... and then we broke off to do out own things really the kids had fun even my camper who did not participate but really enjoyed the excitement given off by the event and staff... I had another non verbal camper this week.. again dealt with the negatives of a child not being able to say hey chris you idiot its hot out side and im hot take me inside to the nice air conditioned room. its fine i understand it its just at the same time i really dont like getting scratched... and then at the exact same time you say to yourself well how else is he supposed to tell you something is wrong its his way of expressing him self... thats what it is for me not having delt with these disabilities day after day but still being educated an aware of what all this means... scratches still hurt and im not at that stage of calm and collective understanding... like there was a staffer who got hit but he has been dealing with this he took it and immediately began to make sure the child was okay that he was taken care of befor next attending to himself... seriously looked on with aww at that i got punched and kicked in week 2 and i hated it absolutely and by the end of the week was seriously doubting my ability to hold back my frustration. whats weird is i got councilor of the week that week for my patience but by the end i had none 5 days and i was left just upset and not wanting to take anymore crap... the other side to that is you look back on your week and think how could i have those thoughts of A loosing my cool on a child and B even understanding the fact that he is non verbal and this is again his way of saying i dont want this. sometimes it seems impossible to do this job... i look around at some of the staff and am amazed at how well they handle themselves most of them having done jobs like this before... im amazed at the creativity... no thats wrong this instantaneous creativity... let me pause again and add that i have alway been jealous of those peers who have been able to create things out of nothing... my brother for instance used to collect little star trek figurines like the plastic (small) figurines of star ships... and he created a board game... i always kick myself when i remember i threw all of it away when i moved... but its that start of creativity that makes me sooo jealous of others... i am creative dont get me wrong but it takes me time to see the best thing to move forward with... my goal is that instantanious click of hmmm he loves bells lets make some music record it on my iphone and then play it back for him when he gets alittle moody... freaking genius and im sitting there jaws wide going wow never in a million years would i have thought that...
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